Stop callin' stop callin' I don't wanna think anymore!/I left my head and my heart on the dance floor!
I'm running. There's no treadmill, no news channel on mute with closed captioning streaming on the screen. There are no muscle-bound freaks walking in and out of my field of vision, pumping iron for the gratification of the mirror and everyone around them. There's only me, my music, my feet pounding the pavement, multiple hills looming in front of me, and the sound of my labored breathing in the crisp, morning air.
Rise up and take the power back/It's time the fat cats had a heart attack/You know their time's comin' to an end we have to unify and watch our flag ascend!
I have to take down Halloween decorations and this makes me sad. It's my favorite holiday, my favorite month, my favorite season of the year. Maybe I'll leave it all up. It makes me happy and probably pisses off the neighbors, but like I've ever done anything for the gratification of anyone living in this corner of Georgia. I could just leave the skeleton there through Christmas and put a Santa hat on him. Yeah, that's it!
You're so gorgeous, I'll do anything/I'll kiss you from your feet to where your head begins/You're so perfect, you're so right as rain/You make me, make me, make me, make me hungry again!
Can I do this hill? It's so long! I HAVE to do this hill. But it's only my second run through the streets. I need to cut myself some slack. I'm giving myself until April to conquer this route. I have six months. I can do this. I have to do this NOW or I'm a failure. I can do it. I can make it. I see the top. I'm done. I have to walk.
I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream/I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean/I don't know how I got this way I know it's not alright/So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit tonight.
The house is a wreck. Am I a hoarder? There are too many toys. We need to give a bunch away. I need to teach my kids about giving and not receiving. That's what it's all about, right? How do I impart that to idea to little kids when I'm not even sure of how to explain it to adults? I just feel like I'm living under stuff and not above it. Time to tidy up.
Take my hand/Tonight/Go ahead/Tonight/Play my game/Tonight/Keep your head/Tonight
I AM A RUNNER! I'M DOING THIS! IN AUGUST I COULDN'T EVEN RUN A MILE! NOW I'M DOING THREE! KICK ASS BABY!
Cause you're hot then you're cold/You're yes then you're no/You're in then you're out/You're up then you're down/You're wrong when it's right/It's black and it's white/We fight we break up/We kiss we make up
Oh, I'm so not a runner. I'm a shuffler. I'm not running. I'm shuffling. This is pitiful. I'm probably going to die, right here on this sidewalk. The crows will pick at my eyeballs until animal control comes and shovels what's left onto the back of the truck. S'ry Mr. Ty-man! We done ground her up inter cattle feed! Here's yer bill.
We can't afford to be innocent/Stand up and face the enemy/It's a do or die situation/We will be invincible!
OK I'm in my neighborhood. Can't let any of these fuckers see me panting or dying. Must. Run. Up. This. Hill. No walking. Run. Run. Run. Run. Run. Run. Run. I can do this. There's my house. My house with water. Coffee. Shower. TV. Toys everywhere. Dirty laundry. My house. Run. Run. Run. I ran. I'm done. See you on Wednesday you nasty-ass hills.
Heather's running playlist courtesy of:
Lady Gaga and Beyoncé - Telephone
Muse - Uprising
The Cure - Why Can't I Be You?
Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit
Yuksek - Tonight
Katy Perry - Hot N Cold
Pat Benatar - Invincible