02 March 2009

Ugh.

Dear Blogverse:

Heather isn't in today. She should be writing a post, but instead she's having a quiet panic attack. You see, after a devastating loss* to the citizenry of the People's Republic of Blogistan, she's thinking about her own mortality and having her usual stomach ache/chocolate binge/late-night infomercial freak out. Basically? She's being a selfish dumb ass who can't deal.

Plus? Her mom's anemia may be something more. Something a lot more. And it's not that she can't cope with that. It's that she can't cope with the possibility of having that discussion with her kids. Who are really young. And probably wouldn't get all of it. But would nonetheless demand an explanation of some sort.

So, Heather will be back tomorrow. After a North & South marathon. With oodles of Patrick Swayze.

Who is, himself, facing his own mortality.

Ugh. Never mind.

Sincerely,
Heather's Blog

* Lisa, I wish I had known you. I wish you much peace. I wish your family comfort. I wish... you didn't have to leave. I also know what you would say to me right now. "It is what it is." Good voyage, m'dear.

9 comments:

HEATHER said...

"It's that she can't cope with the possibility of having that discussion with her kids. "

I know exactly where you are coming from with this. My own mom's cancer took me right back to being seven years old and my grandmother dying from cancer. I remember how scared, angry and hurt I was and I don't want my son to have to feel that. That's why I beg G-d to heal my mom daily. I wouldn't be able to cope with seeing his little heart break like that. Email me your mom's name and I will be praying for her.
(((HUGS))) Love you!

Angie said...

I will say some prayers for your mom too. By the way, there is no such thing as coping with bad news from a parent. Just hang on maybe all these prayers will find their way. . .

Ashlie- Mommycosm said...

Oh, Heather. That totally sucks. I'll be thinking of you and your mom today. I hope the anemia ends up truly just being anemia.

Turnbaby said...

I hope the chocolate helps.

RiverPoet said...
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RiverPoet said...

Have some more Thin Mints, sweetie.

As surely as we are born, we will pass from this world, but Lisa certainly shone brightly, didn't she? I wrote about her today, too. What a trooper...

I will keep your mother in my prayers that the anemia isn't "a lot more."

Peace - D

Not Afraid to Use It said...

My heart aches for Lisa's family. I just can't go there right now.

I will keep your mom in my prayers. We've got so many candles lit in this house I probably don't even need the furnace on. Let me know if there is anything I can do, hon. Sending you loads of hugs. I hope the North & South helped.

Giggle Pixie said...

I'm so hoping the news will turn out to be good. Sorry to hear you're all going through this. We just had this exact same scare about my mom and we feared leukemia, but instead it looks like it might be a blood clotting disorder. Your family will all be in my prayers. (((HUGS!!)))

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Other Heather - I will, hon. And thanks.

Angie - Thanks, Angie, hon. Thank you very much.

MommyCosm - Me, too.

Turnbaby - It does. Very much so.

RiverPoet - Lisa really did shine brightly. Thanks for the prayers.

NATUI - I know. It's so hard for me to think about her two daughters. I love you, hon. And thanks.

Giggle Pixie - I'm so glad that your mom is OK! There are so many types of anemia. I just hope hers is something that is manageable. Not horrible.